Week #22 (June 19-26)

I am back to 219. I lost 7 pounds. Wow. I guess that means that I really didn't gain as much as I thought but still, it is good to be back. I worked harder than ever. I went to the gym twice a day every day. I went in the morning and then in the evening with my girlfriend and ate well. I feel so much better. The lesson to be learned is that I really can't ever let myself go. I can have a bad meal from time to time but I really need to get better at monitoring myself. Anyway, I like my new schedule and hope to continue to do better and lose more weight.

Week #19-21 (June 1-June 19)

I am back up to 226. That's right. 226. I gained 7-8 pounds. I went back to NY to visit my family. It was a stressful time there. I let myself go to eat whatever I wanted. I ate whatever I wanted. I figured that worse case scenerio, I would gain 5 pounds. I ate terribly and suffered for it. 8 pounds gain. I can't fully describe how upset this makes me. I am now back high into the 220s after finally getting out of them. I feel terrible about what I did and I feel terrible about myself. At times like this, I want to just get liposuction and not have to go through the agony of doing it myself. I guess in the long run, this is the way to do it ut it is so difficult. The lesson here is one that I have a hard time accepting. I can't let myself go to do what I want. When I do, I am like a kid in a candy store that will eat everything. I will go crazy and eat everything. I ate badly every day I was there. I went on an eating binge and now will suffer for it. I am not giving up. I am going to work hard to get it off and get back on track. This week I am going to go to the gym twice a day, drink my water, and eat healthy again. I hope I get back to normal in a few days and then start the weight loss again. I am sorry to myself for what I did but now I will move on from there and get back on track.

Week #16-18 (May 9-June 1)

I lost another pound to bring my weight to 219. This is the first time that I have been that weight in years. That makes me happy. I want to lose another 40 but it was good to get out of the 220s. I moved into a new place with my girlfriend who has been cooking healthy for me. I have also been going to the gym. I feel pretty motivated to lose more. The move was stressful but now that I am settling in, I should start to lose more.